Didn't do much update. even after the dumb ass preview and i didn't write anything at all.
So sorry.
Had my food culture day done. IT test done. so basically today I just slept through for my very first day of study break.
Literally, study break should meant for 'a break from study' or to 'break the study time.'
hmmm.. should delete those thinking cz i have to do some catch up. Probably go nesting at library like i did last time for everyday. well not everyday mayb one day go do some crazy shopping. Not sure nesting in library is productive but at least i m doing something.
*well here is something out of topic.
I didn't know how nasty one's personality could be. I mean, what's on earth that person can turns out to be?
I was trying not to believe what I heard or seen. Well, sometimes the ugly truth always hidden at the most bottom of the well-decorated mask.
And when the mask is torn off, see it urself like 'Ripley's believe it or not'.
I had my most unhappy days ,describe it with one word: emotional.
I cried and cried , literally or in deep down my heart. Or probably due to those songs that I 've been listening for most of the days. Or maybe due to those unexplainable reasons that engaged into my mind.
Friendship, love-complicated feelings, guilt,stress and hopeless.
Now I really have no idea what is the definition for 'Friendship'. To you, is probably just a common spices that needed to flavor your life and soon or later you don't need it. But to me, it's kinda like a parasite, must stuck with it until i die. And everything changed when you said that.
When guilt come with stress and hopeless also tagging along, I m broken. Well of course is in emotional way.
Probably I am not a good speaker and a good friend, but I am trying to be one. So coping all the problems and issues is the biggest outcome that I am hoping for. and FYI, I am not as dumb as some people thinks.
I guess this is enough. Sorry if i boring you. but Thanks, for listening.
and one more song to share:
and some english songs too: Lady Antebellum - Hello World, Parachute- Kiss me Slowly.
Let's us get our fingers crossed. and oh ya i m learning Jive in uni, quite fun actually. training for my brain coordination too. is beginner steps so I am looking forward for more and more latin dance!
shall see ya soon. :)
