Hello, Mr. October

Well, the title speaks.
I still have my memories stucked at Chinese New Year , my little niece and nephews, St. Patrick's day and whatever now suddenly I reached the last quarter of the year 2012.

and my semester going to end after next week.
Toughest semester so far. Less subject but all subjects are very difficult.
I finally understand what Nutrition and Dietetics about when I reached sem 5:

counselling stimulated patient.
Study the core : Medical Nutrition Therapy
Research Proposal

Basically all these kind of prepare myself (mentally) about what I might ended up with.

Like this.

Having first batch of our senior graduated certainly bring some motivation.

A little update about whats going on around that I supposed to blog about but I didn't: 

Met Dennis Yin last June and Anthony Neely in the same event <3 p="p">

ND night last June

St.John Ambulans Malaysia Southern Selangor Area (AWESOME) Charity dinner 15/9/2012

Service for Mankind

Went to other area's charity dinner.

Uni's charity run.5km

Ok i know is quite inappropriate updating this blog with some old photos but it actually something that I should have mention earlier. Sorrey!

I personally think this fortune cookie is not accurate.

I don't feel any richer this year (so far) ! hahahaha

Happy Mid-Autumn to everyone!

Goodbye Year 2.

It has been a bumpy first quarter of 2012 for me.
Been through some rough moments in the end of year 2011 then I get myself in one piece and move on.
With all the assignments and rounds of tests, well.. I still keep myself walking. Don't I ? :)

Unlike last semester which I practically nested in the uni's library, this year i decided to study at home. For our uni, we basically don't have to fight for course registration every semester. All have been arranged, and we just need to go for classes. So 9 subjects are heavy. This explained why I have not been update this pity little blog so much because my life was so bore with same thing going around everyday : Assigns and test. Thanks to my friend, I survived.

Well, back to the real deal. I passed this goddamnfreakin Sem 4. and YES, I have finished 2 years of my course so far.
With all the brain torturing moments, finally I get to taste real holiday.

So, I have longer semester break now. It's time to plan some holiday getaways. :)

Yours truly,

 See Ya!

Busy week 8

Oh, half of my semester is gone.
and also the 1st installment of the fees.
Speaking about fees,
WHY the loan hasn't come? I need them for 2nd installment. Please.

and why I blog in this middle of night.with Pharmacodynamic notes lying aside
Because today is 29 of February, is special which you only live through this day once every four years.
Olympic-ly.

Update myself?
Nah. BUSY BUSY AND SUPER BUSY.
but still have time for Korean drama (i hv no idea why =.=)
getting lesser and lesser sleeping time in this semester.
Skin problem is arising.

Went to Olivia Ong's valentine's day concert 11 Feb.
and will meet Joe Brooks on 3rd of March 2012 in his first concert.
Which surprised me and my friend about it because we talked about it on the day before he announce the new.
Is fate. So must go. :)

Kinda rough start for 2012.
No longer sobbing in the dark.
NO time for crying and sad.
Not even a smiling time.

Wish everyone a happy 29022012 .

peace.

很多事 你不祈求 老天爷会赐给你

我决定不说人生有很多事是徒劳无功的。
在我几乎每天泡在图书馆、念书念到三更半夜才回家 外加
回到家凉也不冲，一直等到眼皮都快盖下来了才想用洗澡来提神 外加
咖啡一天猛喝三杯（无意中）的日子 外加
蓬头垢面的日子（I swear it's true!），都没怎么照镜子 外加
眼袋挂到鼻翼的日子……

终于，考试都通过了！虽然CGPA还是很低，是个污点。
如果那时候的那一场小考好好考了或许会到达目标。

我撕开成绩的那瞬间，寻找的是congratulations这个字。我曾经fail过，所以我知道fail了的成绩单上写的是一堆废话让你去重考等等……就是没有congratulations这个字。
看到后我居然是想哭的感觉，我也不知道为什么。
只是知道再盯着成绩单久一点我就会流眼泪了。

感动。
再感动。

但是又不太能表露你开心的感觉因为怕影响到那些有点不幸运的同学。
那种放松而笑的心情我是直到晚餐后才有的，可能那种紧张感还在。

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我拿到成绩后第一个想到的人就是老大。

我说过，朋友对我来说是像每天都要吃东西一样重要。
最近，都没什么很close的朋友，我耐不住孤独。
所以老大就出现了。

我知道fb可以聊天，缩短距离跨过时间区之类的‘异常功能’，拉近人与人之间的距离。
但是重点我要的是真人朋友。
有时候隔着荧幕，我还是有点不习惯。我的大嘴巴是要用来说话的。
所以有时候我可以把同样的事，跟不同的人讲。变得到最后也没重点了。我也不知道怎么变成这样。囧

我以为21岁很多事都能够以21岁的智商来解决，但是不能。有时候你要假象自己还是10岁，把事情看得简单一些，心里就比较好过。

我以为21岁面对的事都不复杂，但是没有。每天每分每秒，都会有意想不到兼super复杂的烂摊子。

我以为21岁的我会很理智的，但是不是。有时候，我还是很冲动，被感觉牵着走却把理智抛在脑后。

我以为21岁的我们，都是一群热血的疯子，但是不是。真正的疯子只是几个，只是大家都没那么热血了。

还要不停的长大呢。 :)

三八的自述

人，是要经一事方能长一智的。
俗话不俗，说得一点儿也没错。

很久以前的那一天之后，我对自己承诺过：没事就别开口说话，不怕事多只怕多事。别人的事，别贸贸然打听，人家还不见得想告诉你。你是哪根葱啊？

小三八是我以前小学的外号，亲戚都觉得我这个孩子怎么话多而且敢说。
我总觉得自己很对，别人也对但是我会希望别人认为我的意见更好。

后来中学之后我也没常八卦人家的事，听了就好，因为感觉很好玩，“故事”嘛也发展得很精彩。中学五年笑着过人生，也没出神马意见，人家说我也点头，人云亦云。

现在上了点年纪，反而小三八性格又跑回来了。不知道是不是人老了就想过得小孩子气点。
可能脑子也老了，忘记说话要思考才能把句子说出来，要么就不铺排好随便说却被扭曲了意思。人家脑子转得快不见得自己也会一样。一个意思去了别人的脑里出来又是另一回事。
个人见地不一样呀~囧

我得管理脑袋，告诉它：没你的事别转。上课念书你就转快些吸收吸收，课外的事你就别理了，听过就算。

我突然想起，前些年我和朋友吵了一架，翻脸后一些日子我主动和好。
后来又在候搞活动意见不对跟人家（另一个）抬杠，闹得后来我们也没说话。但是不久以后我们却像老人痴呆一样什么都不记得也到现在还好好的在一起。

现在在“转大人”的世界里，或许我真的很不够成熟，还需要琢磨“做人要圆滑些这个道理”。或许我说话像没脑子的白目，但是有时候我的脑子跟嘴巴是连线的，刹车不及啊。

但是我很诚恳地告诉你们，我在认真学习改变。
学习着无论听到了什么都当听歌；人家说了什么笑一笑就好，别搭嘴。
忍着。

噢。如果你们看到这里开始觉得我这个人很有问题的话，对不起啦。

星期一是最后一场考试！拜托让我不要有重考的机会！我不要再花那些无谓的钱了！

1 down 4 to go!

(i know this photo is super random)

yes. I just reached home 20 minutes ago. Still not taken my bath yet since washing machine is taking over the pressure something. So if the washing machine on, i can't bath with the pee-size water.

is 10.21pm now.
Me, with my saggy eye bags and concentrated brain cells. Hmmm. and smelly hairs
Today is the first day of freaking EOS! First paper is Basic Biochemistry, 30 mcq, 5 saq and 1 essay question.
As usual, I always use the cakar ayam hand writing whenever is in the important exam. So I finished earlier not because i m super smart tht i can do all questions with no doubt, is my chickenclaw handwriting. Hope lecturers can understand me. :")

Tmr is Food Prep paper. One of the subject with no directions. Which means no proper lesson outcome, module outcome. It's stated but is in general way. So meaning that you r fcking study every shtwords of every chapters.

gonna stuck them all in!

When there is exam coming or on going, i will facing super great amount of hair loss everyday. my hair now is getting thinner. Even now i m so afraid of combing my hair cz they are now super precious to me! :(

Thinking of it, actually time do past pretty fast. Today is wednesday, soon i wil be talking about tmr is saturday's account paper blablabla. then monday is the last day of exam. then rest for few days, heading down for another course then FUUUYEEAHH!. gonna pack my bags.

Ok. take care everyone.! *i declare the library of my uni is now my favourite place for these coming week.

updates

fck. I just checked the calendar, and my finals are 16 days away from this moment.
16 days. minus 1 day tmr and tuesday. so 15 days.
oomfg.
But thank god i reduced my time spent on facebook, surfing net, watching glee :( which is probably due to guilt-feeling that is gradually increasing.
Today went for mother's day lunch with mom's family.
then sissy suggested Jusco Seremban 2.

and we only reach home at 6pm. bathed,ate and now looking at my first aid book cz tmr got assessment.

Goal before next week end (hereby means Saturday): finished study 'Principle of Food Preparation' which is totally a dumbass subject and halfway on my biochemistry. Another week is spend on F.Accounting sub and the Food Culture sub.

most of my kawans are finishing their finals and i m yet to start. T.T

I need shopping therapy.

Okay, gotta go. May god bless my brain.

I

 I really have to apologize here about my poor-little-blog.

Didn't do much update. even after the dumb ass preview and i didn't write anything at all.
So sorry.

Had my food culture day done. IT test done. so basically today I just slept through for my very first day of study break.
Literally, study break should meant for 'a break from study' or to 'break the study time.'
hmmm.. should delete those thinking cz i have to do some catch up. Probably go nesting at library like i did last time for everyday. well not everyday mayb one day go do some crazy shopping. Not sure nesting in library is productive but at least i m doing something.

*well here is something out of topic.

I didn't know how nasty one's personality could be. I mean, what's on earth that person can turns out to be?
I was trying not to believe what I heard or seen. Well, sometimes the ugly truth always hidden at the most bottom of the well-decorated mask.

And when the mask is torn off, see it urself like 'Ripley's believe it or not'.

I had my most unhappy days ,describe it with one word: emotional.
I cried and cried , literally or in deep down my heart. Or probably due to those songs that I 've been listening for most of the days. Or maybe due to those unexplainable reasons that engaged into my mind.

Friendship, love-complicated feelings, guilt,stress and hopeless.

Now I really have no idea what is the definition for 'Friendship'. To you, is probably just a common spices that needed to flavor your life and soon or later you don't need it. But to me, it's kinda like a parasite, must stuck with it until i die. And everything changed when you said that.

When guilt come with stress and hopeless also tagging along, I m broken. Well of course is in emotional way.
 Probably I am not a good speaker and a good friend, but I am trying to be one. So coping all the problems and issues is the biggest outcome that I am hoping for. and FYI, I am not as dumb as some people thinks.

I guess this is enough. Sorry if i boring you. but Thanks, for listening.

and one more song to share:

and some english songs too:  Lady Antebellum - Hello World, Parachute- Kiss me Slowly.

Let's us get our fingers crossed. and oh ya i m learning Jive in uni, quite fun actually. training for my brain coordination too. is beginner steps so I am looking forward for more and more latin dance! 

shall see ya soon. :)

It's March already and still marching forward

A little updates of my current life:
Reports,assignments and assignments. It's like never end.


I hope I own a camera or something. will make my life easier on taking photos.
My phone is not really designed for photo taking but at least i can use it to capture something funny around my life.
but...I need bigger mega pixel! daahahahhhaha.


yes, I booked myself a holiday trip as 21st birthday celebration. together with my sec school bff.
I don't throw a party. cz I dunno who I should invite and who I shouldn't.
Waiting ppl to rsvp to event is gila and exhausting. They might ffk you at the last moment. 
21st party must be very impressive * my thought


Shhht. I am 21st! Not reaching birthday yet so just count as 20 la.
Hmmm....recently I have been recruited as one of the Malats&Aunties gang in my course. In case you dunno what is Malats = Ma Lat Lou (cantonese). Aunties for sure are girls la.
We basically have one characteristic in common. Like to eat everywhere and have fun. C'est Le Vie is like our motto or something. So,we are enjoying every moment of uni life, took silly photos, drinking, crack some lame jokes. We are not the studious type that will sit our ass together and say "hello books!".  I mean of cz we all are students, but we hardly have 14 of us together and study. study thing, we are in separate ways. :) 


Things that we do together are EAT and PLAY.


So, I will try to update this pity blog.
gonna continue hunt down those assignments! 

Week 2

Nah. not counting maternal term ni. haha!

i've been through 2nd week of this semester. Which I am glad that I can get through from sem 1. with a lousy result. super low cGPA.

My gang in the course was went from 5 to 4. And on monday the 5th ppl will back from boredom to class. Finally he is approved for passing.and the uni earn another extra rm500 for few ticks in remark papers.

I learnt from my mistake in passed sem.
1. Didn't study for 200%.
2. Thought I am that kind of smart ass.
3. and actually I am lousy.
4. Not concentrate enough. Too many in-class outing . Either mentally or physically.

I stated some of my goals for this sem. Which later i gonna practice it.
1. Study everything and don't care about tips or whatsoever.
2. Don't go out too much between classes. cz most of the times we never reach uni in time after that and have to skipped it.

And thanks to my mum for not nagging me , and didn't scold me for low cGPA.
  I will promise you that I will pay 200% will and goodness into my studies. So your investment is worth for it and I 'll make you proud when I toss my square hat up to the blue sky.


To everyone out there who are struggling to survive in new semester/trimester like I do:
We gonna get through all of these!

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone. Have you all did your CNY shopping yet?
I gonna do the 2nd round in next week.

p/s: can't wait to meet my friends.

噢。没通过。

我是指Organic Chemistry。 拿成绩以前都很平静，只是撕开成绩单的那一刹那，手指变得很不听使唤。

没通过一科。如果这次重考又考坏了，我就不能和现在的朋友们毕业了。

我不想。

我开始了这个生活模式，就必须这个样子结束。
白话文的意思就是：我认识了这班同学，就必须跟他们一起毕业。
老娘我喜欢做事有始有终。

这次我需要奇迹。
需要勇气。
需要毅力。
需要决心。

我要把Organic Chemistry 的底翻得他阿妈都不认得。浅至大概，深至每片细胞里的染色体。
摸清底细，所谓知此知彼，百战百胜。
我要把Organic Chemistry 的皮拆开，挑出筋来，把他的筋弄成皮鞭。

这次，不成功便成仁。

战争开始。

-金刚暂时不变形-但希望脑子变得好使些

这里很久都没更新。
没什么好写了，肥照减，舞照跳。
看来有点成果，体重下降一公斤，维持中。
可能有些人觉得：一公斤罢了你都要算？减掉五公斤才厉害。

我这种是有计划而不是乱减的。
不是晚餐空腹睡觉，也不是水果当正餐。
我有配合运动，但还是不够。一个礼拜摇一次，觉得太少了；STUDY WEEK 的每天清晨，希望能够跑步。

最近都嘛烦课业。
没闲暇的时间烦其他的。
朋友恋爱中，刚萌芽。多祝福祝福！希望我也能沾沾桃花气~
明天小考，两场。后天一张大考，星期六一张大考（废的）。我看这个星期六以后我就来个暂时性全身放松症。到时候，减肥当吹风去了！乱吃呗！

更新近况就到这里。吞书去了~

同学们都要加油，要相亲相爱，我们才刚上完第一个学期呀。

金刚要变形了- 手脚不协调

为了让自己更离目标近一点，我去上拉丁舞了！
拉丁舞耶~ （有点自豪）

小时候很爱看电视节目里那些国标高手扭来扭去的，跟着音乐节奏，仿佛自己就是那些音符。
喜欢Rumba，Jive，还有斗牛舞。
以前自认自己对跳舞的拍子抓得很好，结果昨天发现根本不是怎么一回事。

我学Cha-Cha，但我觉得左脚右脚搭不起来。
人家都很快就学会了，唯独我还在哪里盲人摸象，一直踏错脚。

紧张死了。
丢脸死了。

但是为了目标，还是得撑着！打败手脚不协调的魔咒！
虽然一个星期只是一堂课，但起码比起之前一个星期我都没怎么动过还好吧？
可能效果没那么快，不过慢慢来，这种事儿。

最近功课很多，搞得我精神压力爆表，开始乱说话了。
认识我的朋友，知道我只要压力太大，什么话我也可以乱说，乱发脾气。
因为没办法，我不会释放压力这些东西。

如果外面有谁被我得罪到，对不起啦。忙完这些事儿我就会轻松点。

A new life.

in a totally new environment, competitive, hardly feel any vitamin D from UV.

with some bio samples. (this photo captured at nightime.)fascinating.

Cafe/Canteen/Makan Place or whatever you want to call it.crowded sometimes, depends on your luck sometimes.

15 minutes break between classes.

 outside the auditorium.

Yes, I am currently attending to this university. Any comment? it's freezing. I can't find any better words to describe it, can't use 'Cold', because it's already beyond it. The Dean said the air-cond system is central, means only 1 temperature.Pray that won't rain, will make the whole building look almost like Genting's snowworld."Invest on a good sweather or jacket"-the Dean.

and now is the 2nd week, 14 days, 4 days of raining, 2 days of heavy downpour.

I bet someone will say :" bet'ya miss ur holiday already?!"

"Nope. at least not yet.Haha"

Last time when i was study at TARC, everywhere is trees, grass, mosquitoes, wind breeze,sweat, monkeys. We complained about the heat.sweat,low air-cond.

These are the stuff that I start missing now.

Here no trees, grass, no mosquitoes(amazing), wind breeze,sweat, and don't even mention a monkey. I can't even spot a bird! Some of my coursemates started to fall sick. Most of the hours in a day, we spent under the freezer lecture theater.

well, at least the food here not that bad. :)

and

Prof Fatimah is nice!

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