I adore kids. babies. I love them.
I can spend hours just to have a little fun time with them.(babymaniac)
I don't hv elder brother or sister who recently get married or having kids.
No way I could see my cousin's children that often unless important family occasion.
One old photo- My little cousin.
Another cousin.
See? How cute they are. I seriously can spent hours and hours in chasing them, playing with them.
I love their life. Everytime I see a baby, i will have a voice saying in my mind : I wish I was him/her. Life is less complicated for them, only diapers,poopoo,peepee,milk,food,toy,sleep,nap.
They don't even bother what is the time now.They don't really understand what's going on around them.
All they care is the love that adults gave to them.
I was visiting my friend few weeks back and first met this baby. Not my friend's.
His mum is babysitting a baby girl call Jessie. which this little young lady have a superstrong personality.
She knew you are a stranger, but..she didn't cry and yelled like some other kids do. Oh yea, she is 1 year old plus. She will look at you, or more appropriate , OBSERVE you. try to figure out who are you and what are you doing here in this house. First time I tried to held her and she start making faces. sigh.
2nd time of my visit, probably without my spec and my hair was in ponytail, she probably can't recognise me.hahaha! So when she get out from the crib, she just lying against me at the sofa. I felt so warm *cries* . Soooo cute!
Why this baby/kids post came up? I was browsing fb, saw one album from a woman I knew, titled about in memory of her daughter.
I felt instant tears rolling down through my cheek.
I never knew she lost her child few years back.
sigh. I could say no more. I feel sad. Deeply sad. although I never met the child. It's must be super hard for her to let go after weeks of pregnancy, brought her here to this world, joining as a part of the family. Sometimes life is a joke.
Hey there little girl, I am kinda late in knowing you but I know you are having a good time now at heaven as God's pretty little angel. You are adorable and I believe you are a good kid. My love will always be with you. <3
I really have to apologize here about my poor-little-blog.
Didn't do much update. even after the dumb ass preview and i didn't write anything at all.
So sorry.
Had my food culture day done. IT test done. so basically today I just slept through for my very first day of study break.
Literally, study break should meant for 'a break from study' or to 'break the study time.'
hmmm.. should delete those thinking cz i have to do some catch up. Probably go nesting at library like i did last time for everyday. well not everyday mayb one day go do some crazy shopping. Not sure nesting in library is productive but at least i m doing something.
*well here is something out of topic.
I didn't know how nasty one's personality could be. I mean, what's on earth that person can turns out to be?
I was trying not to believe what I heard or seen. Well, sometimes the ugly truth always hidden at the most bottom of the well-decorated mask.
And when the mask is torn off, see it urself like 'Ripley's believe it or not'.
I had my most unhappy days ,describe it with one word: emotional.
I cried and cried , literally or in deep down my heart. Or probably due to those songs that I 've been listening for most of the days. Or maybe due to those unexplainable reasons that engaged into my mind.
Friendship, love-complicated feelings, guilt,stress and hopeless.
Now I really have no idea what is the definition for 'Friendship'. To you, is probably just a common spices that needed to flavor your life and soon or later you don't need it. But to me, it's kinda like a parasite, must stuck with it until i die. And everything changed when you said that.
When guilt come with stress and hopeless also tagging along, I m broken. Well of course is in emotional way.
Probably I am not a good speaker and a good friend, but I am trying to be one. So coping all the problems and issues is the biggest outcome that I am hoping for. and FYI, I am not as dumb as some people thinks.
I guess this is enough. Sorry if i boring you. but Thanks, for listening.
and one more song to share:
and some english songs too: Lady Antebellum - Hello World, Parachute- Kiss me Slowly.
Let's us get our fingers crossed. and oh ya i m learning Jive in uni, quite fun actually. training for my brain coordination too. is beginner steps so I am looking forward for more and more latin dance!
in a totally new environment, competitive, hardly feel any vitamin D from UV.
with some bio samples. (this photo captured at nightime.)fascinating.
Cafe/Canteen/Makan Place or whatever you want to call it.crowded sometimes, depends on your luck sometimes.
15 minutes break between classes.
outside the auditorium.
Yes, I am currently attending to this university. Any comment? it's freezing. I can't find any better words to describe it, can't use 'Cold', because it's already beyond it. The Dean said the air-cond system is central, means only 1 temperature.Pray that won't rain, will make the whole building look almost like Genting's snowworld."Invest on a good sweather or jacket"-the Dean.
and now is the 2nd week, 14 days, 4 days of raining, 2 days of heavy downpour.
I bet someone will say :" bet'ya miss ur holiday already?!"
"Nope. at least not yet.Haha"
Last time when i was study at TARC, everywhere is trees, grass, mosquitoes, wind breeze,sweat, monkeys. We complained about the heat.sweat,low air-cond.
These are the stuff that I start missing now.
Here no trees, grass, no mosquitoes(amazing), wind breeze,sweat, and don't even mention a monkey. I can't even spot a bird! Some of my coursemates started to fall sick. Most of the hours in a day, we spent under the freezer lecture theater.
It's quite a long time i didn't update this death blog.
So i decide to write something. at least make it like a update of my recent days.
I don't know for how long that nobody is viewing here,bcz my nuffnang bill still running down, and i need money.
for what?
I don't know. But if you asked me few weeks back, i will say "I need them for my trip".
and the trip thing nw is 3rd time enter the fail list.
not 100 % fail, but most of the chances.
of course I felf dissapointed...Mostly.and I felt stupid bcz i still throw so much hopes in, and yet , I didn't reach the dream.
I don't deserve it? Maybe.
For many years, I listed down the place I want to visit before I married or tied to something that I can't runway from.
1. Taiwan
2. Hong Kong
3. Hawaii
4. Guam
5. Bali
6. London/United Kingdom
7. Melbourne
8. France
9. Italy
10. Vienna
11. Venice
12. New York/Boston/ Seattle/ Washington D.C
and none of this ever come true.
Even my friends also get boring because I keep saying that I want to go Pulau Redang. and till nw, nothing happened. I keep ask my friend who work at travel agency for price quotations, and till now, he also get fed up, because he didn't earn a single cent from me. haha. I think I'll just stay at home and pretend I am in somewhere else.
I need a new phone. Still hunting for the right one.
For me handphone is not just a HP that simple, it has to be something I fall in love at the first sight and forever.
watched Valentine's Day online.
wait for Dear John!
Had simple celebration of dad's birthday last thursday.
Although he already reach 60, he still can be a humourous dad.
You can see how humourous he is.
yesterday i spent whole afternoon at my friend's house, Chen Yee's.
we doing nothing besides lying on her bed and nintendo ds-ing.
she is in holiday now, anyone wants to date her, feel free to call me!haha
Seriously i hv to get myself a new phone. new new phone.
still uncertain with my choices.
some said iphone, before that i think of blackberry, then yesterday ma fren suggested me buying his htc. which is quite new and he thinking change to the latest model. i hope i can be this rich.
now the weather showing 'big-down-pour-is-on-da-way'..and all the clothes not dried yet! shit lar.
May is almost reach its half! omg! how the time can be this fast!
and today is mothers day plus happy birthday to dad.
next week shall be june. yesh!
next next week piang will off to kampar. i heard that is beautiful.
and i wil be here! still around KL.haha. consider still staying at home because the farest distance i went for studies was Setapak. haha....nex will be in bkt.jalil. still near.unlike my frens, they all travelled from around msia to kl for further studies, guess i am kinda lucky compare to them.
Sorry that i didn't update this dusty blog for so many days (if anyone still reading.) Life still da same, working everyday.and alternative saturdays. Started to missed holidays.When i can get my ass off the bed whenever i want to.
Working as an admin staff is kinda.....ermmm...nevermind. I prefer job that can communicate a lot and walk around, i.e. teacher. Maybe hunt for tutor job after June. I can teach piano, siapa mau?
April's fool was yesterday. and i didn't get pranked seriously. 'Seriously' serious, like someone told you ur house is on fire. Don't mess with friends that have tons of crazy ideas.
when you love someone , 'ignore the colour' they said. maybe some of you will say ' Bullshit'..but i think is quite true. when you see everything in same colour, you will never felt the differences at all.
Distance kept relationship aside. not just boyfrengirlfren thing, friendship too. when he/she at another side of the country, you can't even remembered that he/she was your truly-die-hard best friend.Things changed, people changed. He/she met new friends, somehow high school sweetheart/besties will become histroy.
gonna hit the race tracks tomorrow.hope the weather will be just nice.no raining and no super hot sun.
I went to dentist yesterday.
prepare urself because this post content 2 photos of ma mouth.with braces.
this is before additional rubber band that will add in. Braces isn't fun, and took me alot of time to consider about it.Finally i did it 2 years ago, braces wtill with me now.and i hope they will off from my mouth latest by this JUNE. Sissy have it last year and she already almost done with them.WTF!
ignore wet hairs, just finished bathing.
okay, back to topic.I thought 2 rubber bands already 'ma fan' enough for me to tie them up every morning.Yesterday, the dentist add 5 more rubber bands, results as follow ( see bellow photo at your own risk.)
I can't roll my tongue out! and eat! and talk properly. and this is fucking pain. Scales 8 on 1-10. WARRHHHHHHHH~~~the worst part is,I have to take them off to eat, tied them back later....take them off to brush, tied them back later...and sleep in pain.
So, this is a good advice for who still think of having braces. You must strong enough to cope the pain and patient enough to let people call you -'Ugly Betty'. and brave enough like me,post the photo online like nobody business.
People always think braces is pain. the metal is not pain when they are attached on ur teeth, the pain is when your teeth start mobilising around to arrange themselves properly. If you didn't feel any pain, means your teeth no need do braces because they are fixed in place.
and people who tell you: " Not pain at all lar! where got..." they lied, or maybe braces didn't work out with them..=D
I appologise to whom i told them that wearing braces are not pain at all.
The damn line is fixed! and paid RM150.
wtf. that was a high cost for one fking phone wire.if the line down again, i will not know what to do.
okayyy...emm. busy with work currently and x sure when this will end.but maybe will end mid June.
and i just found out my grandma got one stepmother.very nice one.unlike snow white's stepmom with the bloody red apple.
I am now waiting for a paper that will decide my life.MUET registeration slip!can you just arrive to my house earlier so that i can declare my application?! what the hell.
Sorry folks, i have nothing to talk about now wor.
if i find something interesting will post it la, okay? since my line now is very good.=) hope it will be good for 100 years,since i won't be around that time and no need to worry about that somemore.
